Tuesday, 6 March 2012
Sianz.. I m reali exhuasted! I don't know why my body feeels that I really need a break..
Anyway I m waiting patiently to see the cardiologist..
Oh well halfway while typing this, my turn's up..
I went in. Tt stupid doc is really irritating! He asked me question but he wait4me to complete. Sometimes I wonder if someone like him can get into medical school, seriously y can't I?
I went on & on.. He went on & on.. Damn him.. Even his nurse has to help him answer me.. Eek.. Wat a lousy experience!!Labels: HP post, job
Wednesday, 29 February 2012
wa so scary! so many tin happening but tho it doesnt affect me, i feel for them.. dunno y i reali tin i need to do sometin abt my life.. felt lost all of a sudden!! i really wanna do PR leh.. What's e 1st step to doing this? Random note to self: love never fails.. If it fails, it's not true love..Labels: expression of love, HP post
Friday, 24 February 2012
After a while, u'll understand why people lose their fighting spirit for their greater development.. If one were to view them in another perspective, they merely let go of all their earthly wants to seek for ultimate freedom. This needs so much courage that one had to carefully decide. But sometime, it's just the only way to go to promiseland & the wise'll know that this is the only path to happiness..
Labels: expression of love, HP post
Saturday, 21 January 2012
Oh yeah!happy Chinese new year to all :)
A long weekend but there r tonnes of things to do after I m back fr holidays.. :)Labels: HP post, job
Wednesday, 21 December 2011
today's a gd day cos after today, i need not work till next tues. Really cool :)
every year, i'll buy a little gift (v cheap one LOL) for my section.. 5 person.. 2 years ago, i bought jap snacks.. last year, minced pie fr mark&spencer.. this yr, i bought FOX christmas pudding.. LOL.. wonder how they would react when they unwrap.. haa..
reaching office soon.. ha..Labels: expression of love, food, HP post
Thursday, 10 November 2011
gone back to nus yesterday.. quite happy.. too bad i no access to library.. it seems like the students now are very poorly dressed.. worse than even my time, which is only 3 yrs ago..
i missed school :(Labels: expression of love, HP post
Monday, 31 October 2011
oh well probably the grass's greener on the other side.. i miss school! i love it when my friend&i go class together, then lunch&then class.. so interesting.. i dislike the final year project & lab classes though.. but then i miss alot of chances in school.. i shld groom myself in uni.. bleahx.. today as i was on the way to work, i saw a student from the junior college i m from.. wow, the uniform looks slightly different.. thing indeed changes with time.. i miss my junior college too..Labels: expression of love, HP post
Sunday, 16 October 2011
why am i not sad? weird.. they were so emotional, &so nice to buy me a watch.. but i dont really feel sad.. don't know why? i really like her alot..
sigh.. guess will continue entry tonight..Labels: HP post
Wednesday, 5 October 2011
boohoo.. though majority think that curly hair suits me better, i m rebonding my hair NOW! i am at a saloon now.. can wait for it to end so can see the end product.. :DLabels: HP post, touched
Thursday, 22 September 2011
feeling quite sad recently.. cos I felt so alone.. everytime when I m free, my friends are not.. when i m not or lazy to go out..
growing up is really sad.. everyone judge people based on appearance.. if there's God, why is there inequality?
What's life after death? Nobody knows.. So sad! :x Pershaps it's good that life after death's a big unknown, or people might consider ending their life..
Boo, what a depressing day.. I was at a building beside his building, yet he refused to meet me.. Sometimes, I'll travel all the way from tuas to that building to look for him.. Passing by my house.. But today, I was there for course (which's quite rare) but he refused to meet me..
Sigh.. I spoken to someone.. She seems like a nice person, but she was not married.. I guess is because of her appearance.. Sad! Guys are merely fascinated by pretty faces&figures..
Anyway today marks the end of my second year at work.. I chose to continue.. At first, I was hoping to have a dinner with him (a simple celebration) but he ignored me.. Sigh..Labels: expression of love, HP post, job, life, little girl
Tuesday, 20 September 2011
Life is just a joke... Sigh...
I think the funniest joke of the year 2011 is when i thought my frens was celebrating my birthday for me :x Cos my fren was so misleading, he told me everyone was free for meet up & asked if i was free as well.. My another fren offered to buy KOI for us & i was so touched cos i thought it was my birthday so she thought i love KOI so she went to queue for us.. Haha, in the end, it was a farewell for her so mayb she helped to buy KOI for us is cos to thank us for attending her farewell.. I felt so stupid to assume that they met up to celebrate my birthday cos there's no practice for this group to celebrate birthday.. You know i really like it when a large group of people giving me a surprise birthday celebration.. And the funny thing was I thought everyone disguised their intention so well which make me thought it was a surprise celebration & expecting a cake out of nowhere.. lol.. Whenever i think about this, i find myself really stupid.. So stupid to assume such nice thing would even occur..
I didnt even have any flowers for my graduation.. Most of them were either carrying flower and/or bears in their arms, so envious that people really care for them as no one bought me anything.. I quite like the graduation bear, that's wearing the same the science graduation robe.. But it costs $50 & i thought it was too expensive for me.. I wonder why i even attended my own graduation ceremony.. I just felt so sad attending it..
Then he bought me the 3rd bouquet of flower after i asked him to.. I was like nagging him to do so.. So in the end, when he finally got me the flower, it was so expected.. Really.. My heart sank.. Cos i felt quite pathetic that i had to ask for my own flowers.. :( he tried to put the flowers behind his back when he approached me but i already knew he would buy me on that day.. Sigh..
I m too tired.. The entry is already sad enough.. Shall stop blogging for today..
Labels: expression of love, HP post, life
what a terrible life I m leading.. :( If there's God, why is God never fair to me? why am I so freaking tall? damn, why cant i just be of average height?
it's pretty irritating when e lovely guys around u are short.. & the unlovely thing about them is their ego; they mind gf taller than them!Labels: expression of love, HP post, life
Tuesday, 6 September 2011
so shocking! when I heard no more events under that portfolio.. I am sure I regretted my decision.. but I guess I don't care anymore since I m really leaving.. there's nothing that can make me stay anymore..
I guess I m really an unlucky person.. horrible.. if I were to stay, bound to have tonnes of thing to do.. luck was never on my way..
as I think through about the thing that had happened previously, I really wonder what shitt can happen in my life.. I am not pessimistic ,but realistic.. if gd thing can ever happen to me, I guess it must be a bigger shit in disguise..
what can I look forward to in life?
most of the time, I prayed but my prayer never answered..
I'll to take it easy..Labels: expression of love, fate, HP post, job
Wednesday, 31 August 2011
sigh I seriously feel that love wears away with time. that's why we should groom ourselves so that u will be able to get a boyfriend soon after your relationship fails. yup.
the world has lied to me & there's nobody i can trust. sometimes i really hope that i'll be 20cm shorter.. darn but life's disgusting.. if i m a guy, i will be super short to the extent most girls r taller than me..
do I not know life? & for thing I am sure, if God ever exist, God never loves me.Labels: expression of love, HP post, life
Friday, 22 July 2011
sigh.. so drama-o-rama.. luckily i didnt request to go as well.. or rather for once, i thank God that the circumstance's not that favorable for me to go.. wa.. I didn't know leaving can be such a pain!
ok, i guess i'll stay till 22 Sep before i make any move.. i have to endure.. but if i m not ranked well again next year, i'll definitely leave..
I don't want to be a bangala..Labels: expression of love, HP post, job
Thursday, 21 July 2011
It's quite to know that she is very blissful with her bf.. Her bf posted on facebook tt he's very xin fu & tagged her.. & she replied that she would learn to make fried rice for him.. So sweet :)
Sally just gave birth to a baby girl.. She looked blissful too.. I m envious of her daughter because sally & her husband are so rich.. The little girl'll get whatever she wants in her life.. Sigh, i really want to study overseas but no $$ :(
Oh well another guy makes a brief entrance into my life.. But guess he was just a passer by.. The dating game is too irritating.. I prefer someone simpler..
Labels: expression of love, HP post
Friday, 8 July 2011
I saw a very pretty stalk of rose. so gigantic! & it's only $3.. sms abt it but he didnt ask where i saw it.. ask him why he nvr ask where i saw the rose.. he didnt reply..Labels: expression of love, HP post
Thursday, 7 July 2011
darn I m reali full of angst! why the hell must I do so many thing? my performance bonus's not enough for me to buy a bag!Labels: HP post, job
Monday, 4 July 2011
it's extremely bad when I no longer look forward going to work.. & when I m looking forward to knocking off everyday..
can someone please tell me if I should look for another job internally?Labels: HP post, job
Friday, 24 June 2011
i felt so angry recently.. sometimes i wonder why..
anyway, i felt happy he bought me KOI ytd though the ice had melted.. so sweet..:)
thought of designing a 1 year anniversary card for him :pLabels: expression of love, HP post
