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Who am i?

Huifang
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Everyone has a soulmate, who is simply just yourself.

Life's just a meaningless joke. Probably because word is free, so the people just say whatever they want even if they don't mean it. But fret not, thou shalt lose no hope, for thou still have thyself. Thyself shalt always stay true and faithful and never will let lies pass through thy lips...

Life's just all about external excellence. Worship your physical temple, they proclaim... But fret not, thou still have thyself... There's still a soulmate in this world who does not despise your tangible externality.

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    Friday, 29 May 2009


    damn!! might fail.. haiz.. so embarassing.. i hope i won't fail.............

    shall off my laptop so tt i can fully concentrate!! =(

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    Thursday, 28 May 2009


    seems like i am feeling very bad these few days!! been feeling so hungry these few days.. been eating so much biscuits and food.. the most classic was yesterday, i ate yong tau foo for lunch.. rice dumpling and ice kachang for dinner.. not to mention, biscuits for snacks!!!!!

    god.. don't tell me i have to do something i don't like?

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    Monday, 25 May 2009


    biscuit

    oh no.. i am going to talk about biscuits again!! haha.. anyway, i was taking a lift then i saw a man with a trolley full of tin biscuit..

    for once, i cannot help but find him so charming.. my god, was it the biscuit or him who is charming? i could not help but look at the flavor of those biscuit.. though those flavours are not really nice, i still love those biscuit!!

    i always love soda cracker but i hardly eat them because they are too high in fat and i have gained some weigh recently.. then i found another tasteful alternative!! meiji's plain cracker.. taste like soda cracker but not oily at all..

    today i passed by a traditional bakery.. i bought a huge packet of nice biscuit.. it was so nice to the extent i kept eating then i got so disgusted that i could not stop eating, then i threw the remaining biscuit away!! haiz.. drastic measure but really bo bian.. i really don't want to finish the whole packet because i was planning to eat yummy egg tarts later on..

    quite contented with life recently due to indulgence in many biscuits.. hahaha.. i am such an easily satisfied girl :) But then this indulgence WILL cause drastic weigh increment.. shall indulge for a few more week before i bid my beloved biscuits adieu..

    i love biscuit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    Sunday, 24 May 2009


    damn it.. feel like indulging in rice dumpling.. with lots of chili and sweet sauce.. i could swallow a few in 1 go..

    sometimes i wonder if there is any difference if i live overseas or in sg.. does it really really matter?

    oh ya, i got so pissed with someone for keep bothering me with phone call.. firstly i don't even know the person, i gave him my namecard in hope for some business opportunity.. he never refered any clients to me but kept pestering me to go out lunch or what crapz with him.. until to the point, i didn't pick up his call when i see his number on my caller ID.. so he used private number.. he ever asked why i never picked up his call.. is he so stupid to realise that i am avoiding him? dumbo, cos i was expecting calls so i have no choice but to pick up the private number.. so the ultimate came, i was sleeping when he called again using private number and i thought it was an important call.. then i was so pissed it was him asking me out for lunch again in the wee hour of morning.. so i said i want to sleep but he said he was asking me for lunch.. don't i have to eat lunch.. damn it, i got so pissed and i hung up on him.. and damn, i was awake, unable to go back to sleep, making me restless the whole day.. damn idiot!! the next time he calls again, he will get it from me..

    i mean he is stupid or wat, can't he tell that i am not interested in talking to him? whenever he asked me out, i will just say i am not free.. i was despo and helpless in my job, yet he never refered any case to me (but to someone else!!! though he claimed that i am very comfortable to be with and will definitely refer case to me.. yet, he just made use of me for his clients!!!!! big fat idiot!!).. yet, he want to pester me like hell.. i promise i will swear at him the next time he calls..

    anyway, hope that none of my frens are shocked by this entry.. i am a very friendly person who love my friends:) i will go out with friends(regardless of race, language or religion) for meals, just give me a time and place.. unless i am too upset to go out..

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    Saturday, 23 May 2009


    temptation..
    half a kilo of biscuit gone in a day.... 1 kg of biscuit in 2 days.. damn it.. i will not buy those biscuit anymore.. i love biscuit so much.. actually i only bought 500g of biscuit but it was so nice that i went to buy another 500g.. i don't know the name of those biscuits; i only recognised the biscuits by its appearance.. haha..

    anyway, these few days i also have the strong urge to buy a 5kg tin khong guan assorted biscuit.. however i didn't because i am too confident that i might finish the whole tin at one go.. the temption is too great..

    i love biscuit so much so to the extent i wonder if i should just eat biscuits for my 3 meals.. if u love something, u should express it right?

    hahaha.. it has been a long time that i ate digestive biscuit.. i didn't have the courage to buy because i love it tremendously.. i knew i cannot buy because i might finish the whole thing in 1 go.. because i love it so much, i have no self-control.. so the best thing is don't buy!! disgestive biscuits are high in calories and fat..

    i also love butter cake (must be super butter that kind) and also big round apple/cherry/pineapple tart and egg tart.. however i will only buy 1 slice because i knew if i buy alot, chances of me finishing the whole thing is very high.. i have bad experience of finishing the whole big round apple tart of about 800g on my own!! hahaha..

    love is a very scary temptation.. it will cause people to lose self-control and to do the wrong thing.. so it is good to do away with temptation in life.. because temptation is just a sheep in wolf's clothing.. for eg, butter cake is an evil temptation, the whole 500g cake will be unknowingly gobbled down.. the consequence would be increase in weight of the consumer and then he would be octracized by the society..

    temptation is just a bad thing.. homosapiens are very naive to be deluded by their surrounding into believing that love is a great thing and one must embrace it..

    yucks!! i shall not buy the 5kg tin biscuit.. i shall just forgo this love for love has gotten me into trouble before.. once bitten, twice shy..

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    Friday, 22 May 2009


    seems like a long time i have blogged or read my fren's blog.... simply just no mood to do so.. after all the crapz that i have gone through, i just got so disgusted.. yuck!! just feel like puking!! i didn't know that all the paths can be sealed and there really comes a point where you are fated to eternal damnation..

    it is ok la.. i expected that anyway..

    well.. got to move on..

    i wonder if there is a chance for me to lead a happy life.. a good life that everyone will be envious of.. a meaningful life that everyone will be yearning for..

    anyway, i watched a show that made me change one part of my life.. i guess i will work towards it.. i mean who cares?!?! the most important thing is to be able to be happy............. nobody will want to give u happiness.. u must slog for it urself.. in life.. u lose some, u gain some.. in order for me to gain happiness, i must lose something.. the fated loss is inevitable.. the process of attaining the desired happiness might be filled with sweat, tears and emotional turbulence.. but who cares about the process? the shallow homosapien race is only concerned with the eventual outcome..

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    Sunday, 17 May 2009


    attended a fren's wedding yesterday.. i remembered when i attended another fren's wedding last dec, i felt so touched.. however, yesterday i didn't feel touched.. i mean if i attended this wedding in dec, i might feel touched but no longer anymore.. i have this feeling that i will be attending another wedding soon.. and i guess i am quite sure i will not feel touch..

    anyway, the wedding is splendid.. wedding always give people hope or rather illusion that there is true love la.. haiz.. i must be optimistic... i believe that guys don't judge gals based on their looks at all.. guys will see gals from deep within.. there is true love in this world.. yup.. i believe in this.... *nose getting longer, hope that the birds won't come to my nose to build their nest..*

    today i guess i ate too much.. nice buffet.. was busy eating.. until to the point i knew i had to stop lest that my stomach explode.. i guess food was invented in this world to give human being pleasure in life.. i love to eat.. i have been suppressing myself for so long.. anyway i shall keep away from buffet till i lose 5 kg.. hahaha..

    anyway, i hurted my left wrist.. i felt pain when i move my wrist.. now i have bit of trouble carrying thing.. haiz.. now i wear wristband to sleep.. cos i realise i move alot while sleeping.. yesterday i woke up in the middle of the night in pain..

    met a disgusting guy yesterday.. shall blog abt it tmr.. too tired now.......

    ¤Take it easy... C'est la vie..¤

    Friday, 15 May 2009


    today was my last opportunity.. really my last chance before i bid a formal goodbye..

    i really tried my very best today.. i dont want to give this up but seems like things is not gg my way.. do i have to retort to begging so that i can have what i want? i cannot bring myself to beg............

    anyway, it seems like life has given up on me.. i can only blame it on my fate.. haiz.. wonder why my path is always so full of barriers?

    probably life has given up on me since a long time ago but i have just failed to realise that......... c'est la vie..

    p/s: i need a pleasant surprise..... or rather i need it to happen to prove that life has never given up on me.........

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    Wednesday, 13 May 2009


    救命啊!! 好累啊!! 我不应累啊!! 烦啊!!

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    Monday, 11 May 2009


    let me finish this entry on time before the blogger's scheduled outrage..

    time can heal.. i believe in that.. seems like right now i am happier.. though i sometimes don't understand why certain thing just go that way.. i never want to blame fate as the culprit for things that occured in my life.. yet, i cannot help but to do so sometime.. there should be an explanation for everything in life.. unless it is fate that cause it to happen.. fate causes thing to happen without explanation.. just like why is an individual destined to have genetic disorder and hence, born with deformity? only fate can explain why..

    time can also dilute r/s.. to the extent that the r/s will just vanish.. somebody will always wish you on ur birthday.. however, strangely the person just didn't wish you this year and perhaps also in the years to come.. on the brighter note, time can dilute r/s, yet it can also strengthen r/s.. one person stop wishing you (at first u even thought would be a belated one cos the person busy or what crapz not).. but another person will start wishing you every year for the rest of your life.......

    time has changed alot of huifang.. the most obvious change has been my appearance.. because time has shown me that appearance is the most important thing and other thing are just a supplements.. without fulfiling the main criteria, supplements are just crapz.. ok la, i am still not pretty enough but i have tried hard and am trying hard =x Anyway, please puke if u want..

    the second change has been my attitude towards life.. if u know me well enough, i guess you should know that it has also changed quite alot.. how the change likes? i shall not elaborate.. it is something so intangible.. however, i guess homosapiens are more interested in the tangible aspects of their fellow being.. so i guess this absence in description of change in my intangible aspect serves no importance anyway.. probably, people will still be mocking at my weigh.. how come with time, she still hasn't learnt the importance of being (sickly) thin in this society leh?

    30 more mins to blogger's outrage.. guess i gg to sleep.. tough day ahead tmr..

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    Sunday, 10 May 2009




    Wenn es nicht passieren kann, wird es nicht passieren..

    Endlich hatte ich dieses Jahr einen Kuchen zum Geburtstag.. Ein hazelnusser Kuchen!! Ich bevorzugte Butterkuchen, aber ich kaufte den nicht.. Weil ich Butterkuchen mag, und ich war sicher, dass ich den ganzen Kuchen alleine essen kann.. Ich will nicht übergewicht sein!!

    Der Kuchen, den ich kaufte, war klein, aber er war genug für zwei Leute.. Es gab zu viel Sahne.. Das Wetter war sehr heiß, aber windig.. Der Kuchen schmeckte mir nicht so gut.. Ich wusste, dass den Kuchen nicht so gut schmeckt, aber ich kaufte den.. Der Kuchen ist nämlich klein.. Wenn ich ein großer Kuchen kaufen würde, äße ich alles!! Dann wäre es schrecklich!!

    Gestern ging ich ins Kino.. Es gab European Film Festival.. Ich sah den deutschen Film, "Der Fremde in mir." Ohne Untertitel glaubte ich dass, ich den Film nicht ganz verstehen kann.. Der Film geht es um, eine Frau, die nach der Geburt ihres Kindes an Depression litt.. Manchmal wurde die Frau ihr Kind töten.. Die Frau fühlte sich ganz stressig und brachte Hilfe zum Aufpassen des Kindes, aber ihr Mann konnte nicht verstehen.. Deshalb streiteten die Beide viel.. Männer sind schweine!! Vor der Hochzeit wird Mann ganz sympathesisch und sehr verstehend.. Wenn seine Freundin ganz stress ist, wird er ihr hilft.. Aber nach der Hochzeit ist alles anders.. Der Mann wird zu seiner Frau sagen, dass er sich auch stressig fühlt, und die Frau muss alles selbst machen, obwohl sie sich stressig fühlt..

    Heute ist ein trauriger Tag.. Das ist ok.. Ich bin nur eine kleine Frau.. Der Welt ist ganz groß.. Die Leute auf der Welt ist auch groß.. Deshalb kann niemand mich sehen.. Die meiste Zeit denke ich, warum ich auf der Welt bin.. Ich bin ganz so klein.. Vielleicht weiß niemand, dass ich auf der Welt bin.. Mein Leben ist in einer Verwirrung.. Darf ich aufgeben?

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    Thursday, 7 May 2009


    突然,我对很多东西已经不在意了。。

    在意。。 我有资格吗?

    我只不过是路边的一朵小黄花嘛。。

    一朵没有人知道它的存在的小黄花。。

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    没有她,他无法活下去。。
    没有他,她以为她会过得更快乐。。
    有一天,死神把她的他带走。。
    顿时间,她终于明白什么是快乐主义。。
    同一天,她拼命的去找他。。
    从那刻,她再也没有松开他的手。。
    只因为,他就是她的快乐。。

    人往往把爱当成理所当然的
    或许爱一定是要在失去才能证明它的存在
    而且只有失而复得的爱才教人更珍惜

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    Wednesday, 6 May 2009


    Vertraust du mir.. Nichts auf der Welt ist wichtiger als gutes Aussehen.. Frauen sollten immer schön bleiben und Männer gute Aussehen haben.. Vielleicht ist das ein Problem.. Die Gesellschaft gibt viele Leute Stress, immer gut auszusehen..

    Obwohl ich dieses Problem herausfinde, mache ich nichts.. Jetzt bin ich nicht übergewichtig, aber ich sollte schlanker werden, weil der Regel der Gesellschaft steht, dass Frauen müsste sehr schlank sein.. Das ist ok, wenn Frauen untergewichtig sind..

    Ich bin nicht genug schlank.. Deswegen muss ich abnehmen.. 5kg muss weg.. Viellecht wenn ich schlanker wäre, könnte ich eine Flugbegleiter werden..

    Mein Leben ist sehr schwer.. Mit 15 lernte ich fleißig, damit konnte ich eine Ärztin werden.. Ich hatte viel Gluck, als ich wusste, dass ich Chemie und Biologie und Physik für Abitur lernen konnte.. Das ist die Vorraussetzung für Medizinkurs an der Uni.. Jeden Tag hatte ich Stress, diese Schwerige Subjekte zu lernen.. Manchmal mochte ich aufgeben.. Aber ich gab nicht auf.. Ich vertraute, dass ich eines Tages Medizin an der Uni studieren könnte..

    Als ich die Ergebnisse der Abitur bekam, wurde ich sehr traurig.. Obwohl ich für die Abitur fleßig lernte, konnte ich Medizin nicht studieren.. Dann gab es viele Probleme in meiner Familie.. Am Ende studiert ich Chemie an der NUS.. Das ist die falsche Entscheidung.. Nach meinem Studium wurde ich nämlich keine Chemikerin.. Chemikerin ist eine langweilige und gefahrliche Arbeit..

    Ich mochte eine Flugbeleigterin werden.. Aber ich kann nicht werden.. Ich bin zu dick.. Manchmal frage ich nach mir, warum ich sehr groß und dick bin.. Eine dickere und kleinere Frau hat größere Gelegenheit als ich, einen Mann zu finden.. Es gibt Problem in der asiatischen Kultur.. Mann muss immer großer als Frau.. Nur ein paar asiastiche Männer ist ok mit Frauen, die großer als sie.. Ich hoffe, eines Tages ich in anderes Land gehen könnte.. Die Leute des Landes sähe Jemand nicht von außer aus, sondern von inner.. In diesem Land gäbe es gute Leute und echte Liebe.. Jede Leute würde glücklich leben..

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