Wednesday, 22 October 2014
u tried to be nice. In the end, people abused your kindness instead. Well, I shall heck care anymore..
People always say that there's no true friends but common interest.. this's oh-so-true!
Or maybe i am going through this's for me to be less prideful..
Pride is of no value.. and sometimes we have to forgo our pride to gain happiness..
Sunday, 19 October 2014
Life is so sucky now! Every weekday's a pain.. Why did I come to such a place? Damn! I really hate myself for making wrong choices.. i shouldn't have been so prideful.. it's ok to be second choice.. bleahz.. never mind.. 360 days left..
Saturday, 18 October 2014
You need to first deposit money into your saving account before you can make a withdrawal.. if the account's empty, there's no money that one can withdraw..
If human relationship's now the saving account and love is the money.. who should take the first step to deposit love into the 'account'? However, relationship between human is more complicated.. Constant or increasing contribution in the deposit's alright.. but a decrease in the deposit'll cause disappointment..
Tuesday, 7 October 2014
Missed chatting with a friend alot.. I used to complain alot about my wretched life to her in the past.. once, i felt that she wasn't really interested in my life.. i stopped talking much to her.. to give her peace of mind..
One fine day, i was quite desperate for advices about something.. i asked her for her opinion.. what i told her was supposed to be confidential.. then she told someone about it.. when asked why she did that, she couldn't understand why it was a big deal.. OMG! That really Matter alot to me.. how come she wasn't aware?
People drift apart with time.. it's sad to realize that things have changed.. sometimes i really feel like chatting with her.. but i always remind myself that things have changed..
Goodbye, my once a upon a very good friend..
Monday, 6 October 2014
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Was watching a China dating show. Females who want to take part in this show needs to be single and available.. one female wasn't interested in a male candidate and she rejected him as she wasn't ready for a relationship. She said that she was just a few months out of a relationship. She promised herself to take a one-year break to reflect before committing to a new relationship. In another words, she wasn't ready for a relationship. So the tv producer removed her from the show.
Well.. i do agree that one has to do reflection about the relationship after breakup. But if the right one comes along, I am sure that most'll stop their self-pity (that was disguised as self-reflection) and would gladly embrace that right one.. however, if that's the wrong one, the need to do self-reflection could serve as a convenient reason to reject.
Well, that was my personal thought.. and i might be wrong..
Sunday, 5 October 2014
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I used to feel very bitter in the past. I simply felt very upset because I just couldn't understand why things happened in such bad manner..
Perhaps it was due to comparison. But now I look back at all the things that had happened, I can't help but agree that everything happens for a reason.
There are many ups and downs in uni.. i should have graduated with better grades, but I didn't.. well, if i did, i might being a chemist which i would be regretting now..
I never understand why I chose to work in the bank before coming to my current workplace.. If only i worked here straight after uni, my pay would have been higher.. because my experience in the bank wasn't relevant.. well,if that really happened, i would have ended up working under another boss.. i wouldn't have such nurturing boss who guided me alot.. i wouldn't be promoted at a reasonable time..
I always felt bitter that i wasn't able to meet the right guy. When i was in uni, i saw my friend's bf waiting outside the lab.. he came and asked if his gf was inside the lab.. he was holding onto a waffles from science canteen.. back then the queue for the waffles was freaking long.. he must have spent quite some time queuing for her.. that was my favorite waffle too..
Well, now i have a very loving bf =) Sometimes u just have to meet some wrong person so that u will cherish the right one when he appears..
Recently i also felt quite sian about work.. maybe there's a reason why i am here..
