Monday, 26 October 2015
sigh.. plan a doesnt seems to work.. i guess i could just wait a little while more.. i am going to fail my personal KPI.. looks like i gotta stop thinking about plan a.. probably i need to just take a break and execute plan b at the right time..
i want to convince myself that this wait is for a reason.. i tried very hard to think in a positive manner but i am worried that i am deluding myself.. sometimes we just need to accept the fact that things won't work and to consider alternatives..
Tuesday, 20 October 2015
sushi express is finally open at jurong point! i like sushi express as it is cheap. and i could just eat alone. i went there to eat 2 days in a row. it was really yummy! i love the miso soup alot, there is lot of salmon in the soup. i wonder if i will eat there tmr. i hope not..
people always like to dine with another person.. but for me, i am ok to eat alone to satisfy my cravings..
Monday, 19 October 2015
but why? why give me hope to take it away from me?? it is sad not to have it.. but it sucks big time to be given hope that you could have it.. the elation of having something to look forward to.. the disappointment when it is taken away..
on a bright note, i survived monday!!
Sunday, 18 October 2015
i feel that everyone should treat their friends with respect.. yup, enough said.. gosh.. not in a mood to type a long entry..
Friday, 16 October 2015
i am waiting something to happen so badly.. everything seems to be going in a right direction.. all i need is to wait.. or could it be that there is a meaningful purpose for this wait.. for me to think through about issues and to make a more informed decision..
i used to not believe in the saying "things happen for a reason". somehow an encounter with a once-upon-an-important person changed my thought.. things could happen for a reason.. sometimes when we are wallowing in anguish, we sighed and wondered how could bad things happen to good person.. well, it does.. and there is always a meaningful reason behind this..
Wednesday, 14 October 2015
my head is not working.. i think i am too exhausted.. will write something tmr..
Monday, 12 October 2015
things that belong to you would find a way to come back to you.. i hope i could go back to where i used to be..
sometimes i think about predestination.. i am so fascinated by this concept of predestination.. however, my knowledge in it was very shallow.. yet, i did not read much about it.. i guess such reading would be too profound and religious and i am not ready for it..
i am thinking of developing myself in different areas.. i always have a dream to be very good emcee who can capture the attention of the audience.. i am not shy and ok to speak to crowd.. but i wonder why i cannot really be the kind of emcee i wanted to.. sometimes i wonder if it was due to some inherent fear.. this is just weird.. i was thinking of going for some public speaking class but i don't really know where to start.. gosh.. give me a sign.. i am not sure if i have time too as i still got weekly german class..
i really wish i have all the time in the world.. i wish i could just go do everything i want to do everyday.. i think this is possible if money is not an issue..
Saturday, 10 October 2015
i just bought a new laptop! i will be more active in blogging now! stay tuned..
