你不知道的事
王力宏

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

我飞行 但你坠落之际
你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像 倾盆大雨
碎了满地 在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
多的是 你不知道的事
盘旋在你看不见的高空里

i guessed i just need some courage.. have been talking to quite a number of people on the issue that has been bothering me.. in the end, after someone did an analysis for me and i wonder why that was even an issue to begin with.. i am just too stupid to be deceited by the apparent truth.. i guess i knew i had to dwell deeper but i had no courage to do so.. but the analyzer told me that hard facts and i was woken up all of a sudden..

i guess it is really time to move on.. oh well, this was supposed to be a game.. why do i feel sort of sad? i guess i am just confused and timid..

anyway i decided not to buy that darn non-cam blackberry cos i was waiting far too long.. so i went to buy the HTC Touch.. actually it is not bad, i am still exploring.. so i have already dl the bible in eng, chinese and german into my hp =)

oh well, anyway, it is too late.. he doesn't have to do anything anymore.. i am too tired of all the indecisiveness and the long waiting.. i guess he is a blackberry.. hopefully a HTC Touch will appear soon =)

wa.. i guess i am sick.. and i called him to realise that he was with his friends.. i wanted to ask him to come and find me.. but i knew that would be too selfish.. and i have no faith that he will just abandon his frens and come look for me.. so in the end, i didn't ask cos i will be sad if he don't accede if i asked..

and it was abt 4pm and i realised i am still sickly so i told him i could not meet him tonight.. i thought he would call to check if i am alright but he didnt.. he just sms.. probably he was with his frens and so he didnt want others to speculate who he is talking to..

for once, i just felt that i wasn't so important in his life.. and that i over-estimate myself.. maybe afterall, he isn't oblige to do so..

and i wanted to go out with mq and xl tonight but mq wanted to go town.. i realised that i am staying in a too ulu place.. gg anywhere is impossible.. i am really too sickly to move..

sometimes a single action just kills everything..

anyway, Inception is so nice.. and i start to realise that one really do have control of his mind.. i finally understand why people lost hope as time passes by..

i guess inception sort of works, and i am happy because i know that my heart will be protected..

my mind is sort of resistant to changes.. but then i will forget all the unhappy thing soon.. i know i can.. i am ready to embrace this world..

请上天赐给我一颗平静的心，
让我可以接受那些无法改变的事情，
请上天赐给我勇气，
让我可以改变那些可以改变的事情，
请上天赐给我智慧，
让我可以分清这两者。

爱一个人只要放在心底就可以了，
心底的感情，是不会被人夺走的，
也不用害怕失去，
所以，现在我的心是满满的。
无论走到哪里，
都是平静而安详的。
谢谢你，给了我一颗平静的心。-http://www.jimmyspa.com/blog/xhq361711706/206772/detailed.jimmy

God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
If I surrender to His Will;
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him
Forever and ever in the next.
Amen - Reinhold Nihbur

i am so sad.. why do i have no courage to leave him?? why?? disgusting me.. nvm, at least i knew this was not the case anymore..

i guess everyone takes alot of courage to end.. but i guess i have to end it soon.. i am a very selfish girl.. the longer it drags, the more painful it takes to get over thing..

oh well, i felt like crying.. everything is so screwed up..