Sunday, 29 December 2013
this's my 3rd entry of the day.. lol.. i feel v emo..
Got a sudden craving of e bread basket@ La Forkette.. Yums!
Haiz.. bleahz feel like talking2some1 now! Hello, anybody out there?
i think i got terrible pms now hahahaha.. felt a little emo.. was a little emo when i drank latte alone.. hence wrote an emo blog entry just now...
Sometimes when i m emo, i write stupid things too.. but doubt anyone is reading it.. hahahaha..
The banana pie @ mac is back.. damn but i m too full now.. wonder if the pie will sold out by tmr after work... i really wanna eat e banana pie! Didn't get to try it last time round..
I gotta find time to write abt my life in 2013!!
it's pretty weird that i m feeling a little exhausted recently.. but is not those kind of physical fatigue.. am not exactly sure if it's mental too.. it's really indescribable..
hmmm i think i got to sort out my emotion.. it's not really healthy.. i shall be more considerate and not let my emotion affect people ard me..
kinda weird.. i tot couple who just get into a r/s will want to see each other more frequently.. maybe like many times a week.. but hahaha.. it's not so for mine.. i wonder if it's normal but i guess every r/s is different.. mine is just out of the norm.. =P
on another note, i wanna play the violin.. but my nails is too long and i don't feel like trimming my nails.. dilemma..
hahaha what an emo post.. actually got more emo stuff to update but i m really tired to do so.. am drinking latte @ JP.. gonna chiong home to finish my minutes as much as i can... =P
really hope i got a time to write my reflection for 2013..
Monday, 16 December 2013
i know i shldn't be thinking abt it! But oh man, I really feel v exhausted.. I really wan2rest my heart & mind! I think I am just tired! Feel like meeting bf today but he told me he is busy so I don't think i shld ask...
Sunday, 15 December 2013
Hohoho! Xmas coming soon!
There's a v big change to my life recently.. The first 3/4 of 2013 was the saddest part of my life.. Someone whom I once very loved bidded gd bye to me.. And then he disappeared totally out of my life n away to China for 6months.. @ 1st I was hoping the little separation would revive our love.. So I waited so patiently and even bought him all his favourite stuff and mailed it to his house when he was back in sg in Aug.. Even when he was in China, I bought him clothes and sent him cards.. Oh well, looking back, I felt so stupid.. Why am I not moving on? So after I gave myself the ultimatum that I should just leave everything behind.. including him..
Then I was in pain and went out with a couple of guys.. Apart from this, some of my frens have been asking about my relationship status, which brought tears to my eyes everytime.. Anw, I wasn't really interested in a relationship.. I was still wringing with great pain.. But I told myself to consolidate whatever lessons from my past relationship.. I even told myself to take some time to do some reflection and only start a new relationship in Feb 2014.. Why Feb 2014? Exactly one year since the goodbye..
I built fences around my heart so that it can heal.. The wounds were far too deep.. The fences are needed so that no one can come and aggravate the wound..
Then here comes Daniel.. He pop into my life.. When we went for our 1st date, I never knew he is a healer.. I thought he was just another guy.. Then he watsapp me every morning and night.. He remembers everything I said.. 1 day I went out with another guy, J, to Malaysia for an entire day.. In Malaysia, there wasn't internet connection for my handphone.. Though I was out with J, I was wondering if Daniel watsapp me and I miss Daniel..
Then I knew J might not be the one. So one day, I told both Daniel and J the same thing.. Their reaction were different.. Daniel went to get it for me.. Perhaps this wasn't the determining factor.. All along, Daniel was the one who can relate to me.. He is like my soulmate and bestfriend.. I forgot when I start to have a liking for him..
J told me it was nice knowing me and my heart sunk a little but I was really sure I don't like J as Daniel has already taken my heart away..
Daniel is a really sweet guy! He went to buy krispy kreme(a doughnut shop with super long queue), remember every single thing I want to eat and accompany me to eat.. We have common interests and love taking long bus rides! The silence between us is comfortable..
So on 5 Dec13, we were eating a piece of cake.. After that, we walked around to find a rubbish bin to throw the box.. I was holding a piece of tissue paper which I wanted to throw away.. He saw the tissue paper and offered to throw for me..
after he took the tissue paper, he quickly held my hand and asked if I am ok for him to hold my hands.. He also asked me to be his gf.. I told him that he wasn't sincere enough.. He then jokingly asked if he needs to go on his knees.. I told him he should buy me flowers!
Anw, I didn't expect it to be so soon as I told myself to get in a r/s next Feb.. But I am pretty sure Daniel is my soulmate.. and I know he's someone whom I can rely on.. Sometimes, things just don't go according to the plan.. Good things can arrive earlier =)
When we went home, he watsapp me and asked if I really like flowers.. I replied, 'haha'. And he told me he got it..
So this is our love story and our love story starts on 5 Dec 13 =)
