thank goodness i did not waste $$.. i mean i must save $$.. just in case i am jobless again.. anyway, my jobless time makes me really understand people ard me.. those who can help just refuse to help.. wow.. it is amazing..

and guys.. they are gentleman only to their gfs or their gf's gf.. guys are shit.. i just met one guy who is so sweet to his gf but he is not tt nice to other gals.. incredible ya?

anyway, i looked at a guy recently.. he looks ugly.. and he is only gentlemanly to pretty ladies.. he is probably drawing a middle range income but i wonder if his income is sufficient to cover all his liabilities.. and u know wat? he is already married.. i cannot help but to develop evil thoughts when i looked at him.. my god, will i be so despo one day and married someone like him? cos no decent guys want me so i can only have such leftover to choose.. this thought really sent a chill down my spine..

i donno what i am looking for in a husband but i know what guys are looking for in a wife.. since guys are very visual creature, it is bettter to be with someone who is able to support ur lifestyle cos u will age into an ugly old hag anyway.. guys who are rich will have mistresses.. poor guys do not have mistress.. it does not mean that poorer guys are more faithful but is simply just due to their financially incapability to maintain a mistress..

due to my work nature, i am basically interacting with alot of guys.. one married guy actually asked me if he can go out with me.. he also said thing like if he can choose to be a male or female in his next life.. he would choose to be a PRETTY gal.. else, he will just want to be a male.. his wife was previously in banking and then with SQ.. i guess i should be flattered when he asked me out cos that means that i must be a pretty gal.. wahahahhaa.. anyway he is so fun to be with la.. but my right mind told me not to do so..

anyway, i was secretly looking forward to bump into someone on the way to work.. it is weird tt i can find someone who is single but fun to talk to.. but is impossible de.. aint i supposed to be devoid of all forms of emotions? i should just concentrate on the tangible aspects.. life is full of illusion to distract u from making practical option..

Dear Mortal,

I am writing to you again as promised..

did u feel more at ease today? dont doubt urself.. u can do it de.. anyway, just give ur best at work.. u can do it de..

anyway, pls just concentrate in ur work and nothing else.. but maybe u can indulge in french fries and soft drinks but watch ur weight.. u have been eating alot today.. pls do this again.. do u know that for lunch, u ate heaps of fries and fried fish fillets and creamy onion soup.. and for dinner, u ate an upsized meal.. u tin u underweigh meh?

sianz.. stop doubting urself.. damn it.. u can do it de..

tmr is fri.. congrats!! which means next week is coming soon.. u can finally say good bye le.. =)

Regards
Your Angel

Dear Mortal,

can you stop worrying so much? this place is not the place u used to be at.. in this current place, there is no bitches!! and everything is different.. u r now under salvation.. u have already resurrected.. u have now progressed into the realm where u shld bask with happiness..

and my dearest mortal, can u not be stupid? stop trying to look for thing that is best u do not know.. u shld just count ur blessing.. does it really matter if u r the second choice? u shld be gladful that the first choice gone to be someone's choice.. do u know that ignorance is blessing ne?

Dearest Mortal, pls do sleep now.. i will write to u again tmr..

Relax.. Smile and dont be stressed!!

Regards
Ur Angel