sometimes u know u met someone u like but somehow it is not physiologically possible.. and sometimes u r just so confused.. isnt love blind? so how does "physiologically impossible" comes into the beautiful portrait of love? it is the fault of this very ugly society.. damn it.. why must all of us observe the ridiculous rules of the society? so in another word, at the point of birth, u and him were never be meant to be.. or rather, way before u r born, when u r just a fertilised zygote, u r never meant to be with him due to the genetic material that u inherit from ur dear parents..

my fren was shocked when she saw a tall gal holding the hand of a guy, a head shorter than her.. she started to comment.. due to horrendous past experience, it is so hard for me to fall in love again.. but then when u tot u spotted someone u like, the past came to haunt u.. the past came to remind u of that u and him are physiologically impossible..

love can be regardless of race, languauge and religion. but not height..

in the past when i was 103kg, the society told me that once i lost weight, i will be able to be with someone i like. now i have lost weight, but the society patted my shoulder for my effort but told me that height is the greatest barrier to any relationship.. the society lied to me previously because the society tot that i will never lose weight..

sometimes i touch my heart but i felt nothing..

though i can't feel human, but then i can feel food.. ytd i finally ate those naans and curry.. my level of satifaction was 60%.. but it is quite sad that i could not eat the fish head curry.. haiz.. sometimes i wish i could have a soulmate who love what i love.. a soulmate who want to do what i want to do.. someone who will never remind u tt he do it JUST for u.. i dont want anyone to do it just for me cos guys will bring this kind of shitty thing out in a quarrel..

anyway it is pointless to do or say anything now.. because every entity in life has to abide by the law of this shitty society.. and way before we are borned, we are fated that we cannot be with someone due to our physiological incompatibility.. so.. there is no point to fight.. cos this is a losing war..

everything is pre-destined.. forget it.. let's just wait for thing to happen.. i mean bad thing for me to be exact.. =(

damn, i want to eat that fish head curry..