i really had enough..

these few days of holidays shld be for me to rest well and relax so that i can tackle all my arrows when the holidays end.. i cannot believe that i didnt enjoy my holidays at all.. i just need peace but what i get is screaming and shouting.. damn it..

it leads me to give up.. i dont understand why i need to be nice to someone to get screaming and shouting in return, esp during a once-in-a-while holidays.. damn it.. it was so torturous.. i shall just stop buying food and thing le.. she must have thought that i do not have better way to spend my $$ that is why i bought thing for her.. damn it.. just now i went to have dinner at my neighborhood, i saw a very plain-looking lady carrying my dream bag.. i wanted to buy at sales but it was still far too expensive after discounts.. damn it, there are also so many thing i want to buy as well..

i hate it.. this yr my bonus is pro-rated.. damn.. it all boils down to that my bitchy ex boss.. i wonder why there are so many people who passed away each day but she never die.. haiz.. anyway i must save up for my retirement.. my tall height is gg to hinder me to get someone i like.. for eg, i tin i saw someone who fits my criterias.. but he is shorter than me.. which i don't mind.. but i tin he minds..

i just hate my ex boss.. she deprived me of a chance to earn big bucks.. she is a bitch.. she always placed me at those showflats where there is no much units left, while she scheduled all my colleagues to those popular and hot showflats where many transactions are going on.. and when the sales at those popular showflats slow down, then she will schedule me there.. damn it.. she only knew how to use me..

she is the most horrible person i have ever seen in my entire life.. and wat r friends? i was frantically looking for jobs after i left that sucky place, those could have helped chose to ignore me.. oh, this is what i called fren.. the most sucky thing being someone said that i am not suited to do sales but she referred all sales job to me.. so disgusting..

and then i found someone who fits my criteria.. he is an overseas scholar.. super eligible.. but as he was shorter than me and i tin he minds.. so whenever i look at him, i tell myself that this is not possible and i shall not harbor any foolish thoughts.. so what if i know that he can be my one.. i should know that he will never want to be mine.. it is alr so hard to find someone u like, why do u still want to impose such stupid height criteria ne? not that i dont have confidence leh.. is that guys really do mind.. sianz..

this is just a crazy world.. help!!! get me out of here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is such a scary place!!! everyone on this world judge people by appearance.. and so the ugly will be the cruel stepmother while the pretty the princess in distress who will meet her prince and live happily ever after.. this is a crazy world..