today really feel like dying..

i was doing OT trying my best to meet all deadlines.. anyway, i was trying to do something.. finished doing all my thing.. then when i was trying to see how i can do my board today, the bloody system log me out.. cos there is time restriction.. damn it.. so today morning, i went changi earlier to perfect my board.. if only i didnt have to submit the minute ytd, i could have done a better job.. i was so restricted by time.. i wonder why the meeting was changed to yesterday and i was made the secretary and i had to submit by ytd.. thank god i managed to finish everything before the system log me out..

i must increase my working efficiency.. cos now there is a time restriction for me to do my work.. i must finish everything by 10pm.. ytd my senior left and pass me the key, he asked me to be careful when i leave the office.. i told him tt the place we are working at is very safe lor.. the worst tt can ever happen will be tt i fall into the drain as my vision is hindered by the dark night..

i cannot wait to go independent from next year onwards.. i want to go independent.. i am now very confident le.. =)

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anyway i need to find myself back again.. i am so sad.. i really want to go drink tea at wardroom tmr but since my boss is on leave, my senior is in changi tmr, i guess our another lunch partner will not want to go wardroom with me alone.. sianz.. i guess he didnt want to have rumor with me ba.. cos i suspect i already got some liaoz.. so sianz.. can i just go wardroom alone and drink my tea? haiz.. i really need a good rest.. today board at changi is very draining.. i nearly fainted.. oopz.. but i am glad that i go through this.. cos i learnt alot :)

curiosity indeed killed the cat.. damn it, i finally cannot tahan le and i asked the question.. indeed i am the spare tyre.. i m of course quite upset but i shall view this positively ba.. how to tell myself tt i am ok with the fact that i was just a reserve who got into the show cos the main lead was injured ne? i dont like to be second choice leh.. seriously!! i shouldnt have asked.. damn..