i tin i am really old liaoz.. i am so tired now.. tired until i want to die.. recently after work, i am been serving my responsibility to clear watever shit I have created in the past.. i cannot shirk my responsibility so i have to wait till probably end of next week to declare freedom.. i have yet to come out with reasons to end this crap.. sianz.. reasons =(

i just need to bear for this shit for another week.. but my work is getting busier.. the worse is having to attend meetings at the other part of sg and then also at the same time must do my work.. work is all abt ta-chi-ing.. but i am glad my colleagues are nice people.. i enjoy being with them.. =)

ytd was a tormenting day.. in the morning, i woke up early to clear some crapz till evening and then i was so sleepy that i slept at 9pm.. and now i am sleepy still.. so decided not to go out to buy thing liaoz..

oh ya, i finally realised that different people have different rate of recovery after going through unpleasant event.. after going through a bad experience, the body would remember every aspect of this experience so that we would not go through this anymore.. so much so that if we are bitten by a snake, we will backed off if we see a rope.. anyway, i guess the thing that i have gone through in life has made me wiser but at the same time, made me reluctant to commit to many things..

i just want to do well in my job.. i want to be sucessful in my work.. i prefer the tangible satisfaction from my job than the intangible from those watever shit or crapz.. those intangible is something so unfair and can cause great disappointment..

oh ya, i must admit that i am a little happy these few days =) but tmr i tin i am going crazy.. i m so scared i will have to go to somewhere to get my document.. i pray they will just send someone to collect for me =S

p/s: after working there for some time and reliving ur life, i finally realised ur emotion.. i was too selfish..