sometimes u miss someone so badly that you will end up trying to do what the person used to do in the past.. so m i living for myself? i am not sure.. but what i am very sure, is that u are still living in my heart and have been influencing the life i am leading now.. and indeed u r still alive.. right here with me all the time..

oh ya, i made a very big decision today.. to be closer to u.. i hope that i have made the right decision..

anyway i did a medical exams recently and realised that i got a health problem.. sianz.. though it is not that serious, i find the problem quite disturbing.. but i find my condition getting better le..

oh ya.. i tin i m so stupid.. thing that should not happen will not happen.. so if i tot that it happen, i shld realise tt is an illusion..

now the happiest thing, i am closer to u =) i m now doing quite similar to wat u r doing when u r still alive.. =) i believe that will bring us closer together =) and i am sure u will bless me =)