saw my facebook and realised that many of my friends uploaded their graduation photo.. almost all of them carried the graduation bears or flowers with them.. so people actually bothered to buy them thing.. but no one even bothered to buy me those during my commencement last year.. actually i wanted the bear.. i wonder the sash of the gown the bear is wearing will be different for science and applied science.. but then 算了.. i will feel even sadder if i have to buy it for myself.. it just means that i deserve neither bears or flowers only..

daddy and mummy also didn't come for my graduation.. no bears or flowers.. i wonder why the hell i went to commencement in the first place.. one of my regrets in life is to attend my own commencement.. and i felt sad when i looked back at my photo and realised that those who took picture with me had either a bear or flower with them..

oh well, i am a cheapskate right? since i want the bear or flower, i should buy it for myself 对吗? bear and flower are not free对吗? why should i expect anyone to buy such expensive thing for me? i am just a cheapo person.. ok i should change my mentality.. it is my fault.. if i am not that cheapo, i would have a bear or flower during my commencement.. yup.. i am a cheapo cheapo cheapo cheapo.. i expect it to be free.. ya.. i am a cheapo!!

but it doesn't matter.. maybe i am a sucky person to begin with.. maybe i don't deserve anything in life.. yup.. or also it could be that i am a very cheapo person as well..

anyway, my face is now so cui.. i wonder if i want to go shop shop with mq tmr.. i just want to be an ostrich and hide my ugly face from this world..

how i wish my chore will be through soon..