i really think that i have no luck in life.. i wonder why that was the case..

luck is something that is god-given.. all i could do is to try my best.. luck is the thing that cannot be bought or made..

recently i realised what i want in life.. i tried so hard to attain it.. but then i didn't manage to get it due to the absence of luck.. sometimes i wonder why that was my fate.. i really wish that i am not huifang.. i really wish that i am someone else.. huifang's just a luck-less person..

u know the sadness i am feeling now? something i really really want just creeps away from me, despite great efforts made to attain it.. i really wish i am gone someday.. gone to somewhere i will feel happier..

i still remember what happened yesterday.. i really hate myself so much.. i guess i shall not talking about it to anyone.. the more i talk about it, the sadder i felt.. after talking to kw just now, i felt so emotional..

my world has ended.. u know?

why am i always that bad luck?

i felt so hungry again today.. went dinner with xuxu they all.. i felt so so hungry despite having a main course and coffee.. none of them felt hungry.. but i really feel so hungry so the moment i reached home, i ate some biscuit..

i still felt hungry yet i dont have the courage to cook instant noodle and fill my stomach.. huifang u cannot do such a thing.. u know, after u have slimmed down, u have been getting quite alot in life.. u don't want to lose them all right?

maybe there will be a day i will be happy.. i just felt so emotional whenever i thought of how helpless i felt yesterday.. the helplessness was something that is so unbearable..

my life has always been a joke.. and it will always be a joke..