it is getting quite emotional this week.. uncertainties from all aspects of my life.. it is amazing that thing that used to bother me so much now don't really matter cos i have more pressing issues in life to attend to..

and ya, i will never keep late night anymore.. it is getting abit nowhere and i am just tired already.. however i guess not only me is tired.. abit torturous for the 2 poor souls on earth.. and i was suspecting that i was just a spare tyre.. for heaven sake, i will never be a spare tyre..

and ya, i have learnt that if u forced urself to.. u can do something that u don't like.. so as to be accepted by others.. this is so miserable but i hope to see results soon.. if not i will be just suffering for nothing..

and ya, i am crossing my fingers hard.. this week is ending soon.. i am getting jittery.. u r my only hope.. have u let me down?

and ya, i have deleted someone's number from my hp.. don't want to have any connection with that punk anymore in my life..

and ya, i have given up hopes for alot of thing already.. my life is falling apart.. and wat i want to do now is to gorge myself to death at a buffet at a good and expensive hotel but i can't.. wat if i didn't gorge myself to DEATH? those extra calories is going to make me put on weight.. and i will be ocstracised again!!

i wonder if that's a good thing that i met that guy in college a couple weeks back.. cos he was always on my mind after that encounter.. and cos of that, i felt even more upset.. i thought i was going to change my mindset but then fate makes me bump into him.. and cos of this, i guess i will give up either.. why must i hurt myself again ne?

i have sucuumbed myself fully to fate already.. it is foolish to fight against fate u know?