somehow xx was so busy until 1 or 2 am when i was most of time asleep already.. there was one night i was having insomnia, probably got it from R cos he was having insomnia for many nights already.. i sliented my phone while trying my best to sleep but little did i know that xx msg me.. the vibration of my new phone is very strong so i should be able to feel it since i was not sleeping but i didn't.. it's just fate i guess..

when someone is so busy to the extent that no time to keep in contact with another person also tells quite alot.. because how long does it take to send a sms?

most of the time i am telling myself.. probably some thing are not meant to be la.........

especially after watching beauty and the beast.. i felt every sadder.. so this is love.. even sadder was after i watch the hunchback of notre dame.. the pretty gpsy girl eventually didn't choose hunchback cos unlike the beast in "beauty and the beast", hunchback didn't turn into a handsome guy.. that is why the pretty gal didn't get together with hunchback..

it is not going to happen.. it will not happen.. because there is no beauty and there is no prince.. and so there is no happily ever after..

i am not really upset that there is not true love in this world, i am even more upset that why bad person can still live wealthily and healthily and blissfully.. is there not such thing as retribution? or is the higher being preaching that being bad is the only correct way of life?

it doesn't matter i just cannot bring myself to do something that is so heinous.. you win..