yesterday was a happy day.. part of my previous entry was about disappointment.. regarding about someone (let's call the person XX) reaching out with an ulterior motive.. so in the end, i realised that i was jumping too fast to conclusion when XX suddenly disappear from the surface of the earth.. it seems like there is only XX around who is there to make my day and suddenly XX is gone.. my thoughts start to wander.. and somehow it reaches a bad conclusion..
i don't know why i am thinking in that way.. friends are just friends.. friends have their own life, career and own things to do.. you should never be there in a way to disrupt people from achieving their other more pertinent priorities in life.. because friends are just friends..
somehow XX was different in the sense that our conversation are very very shallow most of the time, yet entertaining and very happy.. XX never wants to hear me say, XX would always be the one who is talking about career and family issues (serious issues only some time).. however i guessed i do appreciate because other friends are just too busy for me.. i have enough of tv and surfing the net..
anyway i just cannot believe that XX was hospitalised these few days and only discharged yesterday.. I thought XX had disappeared.. XX was so sad in the hospital regarding career issues.. so i asked why XX never let me know about the hospitalisation..
just now someone with the same name as XX signed on into MSN, my heart missed a beat.. then i realised.. i don't have XX's MSN..
somehow my mind starts to wander again.. i wonder where will my mind eventually wander to..
anyway, C really get on my nerves sometimes.. but somehow i didn't get angry.. maybe i was too bored recently and yet no one is free for me.. that's why i guess.. anyway, C refutes the light pink gem.. i didn't even know why i told him that.. guess i was too bored.. anyway, he mentioned that there was not even a light pink gem to begin with.. haha.. that's what i want to hear.. so after i have invented my time machine, i have one lesser task to fulfil.. 1 less regret down.. >.<
oh ya, i was abit pissed off with C cos he was lying.. so he asked if i hate liars alot.. my answer was, i don't mind if people lies to me.. but please don't let me know that it is a lie.. because i would feel insulted if you thought that i am a 3-year-old kid.. this means that i don't mind sophisticated lies which you put in sufficient effort to mask the truth.. so that i won't find out la..
below is a harmless yet sweet flirting:
路人甲: i don't want you to worry about me.. anyway, i quite miss your voice these few days..
路人乙: huh? u so funny lehz.. you miss my voice? not miss me one meh? haha..
路人甲: miss your voice means miss you lar..
so sweet.. =)
Labels: expression of love, fate, life
