today is new year day. i spent some time today thinking about year 2008. from the first quarter to the third quarter of 2008, i really enjoyed myself tremendously.. learning german at NUS.. taking exciting chemistry modules.. minus the horrific FYP.. the best part of 2008 was travelling alone in Europe.. venturing alone in Liege in Belgium, a place where the people speaks only tongue of french, a language i have absolutely no knowledge about.. never knew that paris could be a place so interesting, but i am sure it is because my aunt and cousins brought me around or i will never be able to enjoy france.. i learnt alot of lessons from my german host.. i saw snow in innsbruck austria for my first time in life..

the last quarter of 2008 was horrible.. period.. so many thing that pissed me off.. but then i am blessed that i have friends who gave me emotional support..

now i am looking at 2009.. i am very sure what i want in life.. i am so desperate about it.. a friend told me to do what i want to do in life.. he told me that he wanted very badly to be a pilot.. but he had very serious myopia, so he undergone lasik.. after he regained his perfect vision, he went to apply for the position of pilot.. in the end, he didn't manage to succeed the interview.. nevertheless, he told me that at least he tried.. he suggested that i should pursue my passion as well.. i might get it.. even if i didn't get it, at least i tried and i can be accountable to myself.. this is inspiring..

however, the mind and the body is weak.. i must try to break out of this cycle.. i kept trying to pyscho myself today that by the end of first quarter 2009, i will be ready to persue my passion.. i shall commit myself to this in a few days time..

i am running out of time.. i want to live my life the way i want.. i want to leave this world without regrets..