something are just so hard to control.. probably of the element of fate existing in every part of life.. u know u shouldn't have, but you just do it because you ought to do it.. u wonder why u have to live with the expectation of your fellow human beings and the principles of the general society.. why do u have to follow the norm? do u really believe in those norms, principles and guidelines? or u are just worried that your fellow human being and the society would shed a bad light on you? you are freakingly afraid that your family, your loved one, your neighbours and the passers-by on the street might be concerned about your tarnished reputation..

you know that you are not commiting a crime.. you are not going to murder someone or burn down someone house.. you are sure that you will never commit such heinous crime.. what you have partially executed is not a crime in your dictionary.. however to some, you are a bitch who might create a big haveoc in this peaceful earth after your full execution..

you tried to see the situation in their perpectives.. you seems to see something from their point of view.. they seems to be correct from their perspectives.. but from your perspective, u think that it is no big deal.. you know if you were to go along with their perspective, you will become a very sad person.. in worst case scenerio, you might develop depression.. in the end, the society would place you in a mental hospital.. and you have to foot the expensive hospital bill.. the society will just give pitiful glance on u and then walk away..

you know you have to live for yourself because nobody with the exception of yourself can give u abundance happiness..

you have 2 choices.. to live with your own principle and you will be happy.. to live with others principle and you will be sad.. it seems like a simple choice..

however, i m sure almost everyone on earth is a sad soul..