today turned out so bad.. but then i am praying that hopefully i will hear something tomorrow.. i am praying hard.. may i get it tmr!!

anyway, i really hate people who ignore me or treat me as if i am transparent.. damn it.. although i admit that i like being alone, there are just some instances or occasions that i dont want to be alone.. yup.. all the occasions when people ignore me, i will remember.. so that i know that they are not my friends.. went for fortune telling when i was in my final year in NUS.. the astrologer said that i tends to spend time on people who don't deserve my attention.. because of this, i am so conscious when making friends..

anyway, i felt quite blessed.. i never knew that i could still have friends in the corporate world.. however it seems like i might have friends.. sometimes i am so touched that alicia and margaret always accompany me.. they are very important people because i will not survive if they are not there.. i never forget how shattered i was when the both of them were not there during one of the occasion.. it was so horrible that i left early.. yup.. everytime i saw the entry about the occasion in my diary, i cannot help but thank god that i have them in my life..

wonder will i ever get to go malaysia with the both of them and clara..

i am still holding on to so many memories and presently i have so many committements.. wonder when i will be free to do whatever i want to do.. perhaps it will come the day i finally understand why certain thing happened in the past.. i yearn for the arrival of that day..