放开手, 往北方走, 留下伤心的树独自忍受..

after going through this shitty path of my life.. i feel so disgusted with human being but on a brighter note, i am now out of the shit.. i never got a chance to breath fresh air while i was buried within that heap of shit but now, i savour the smell of fresh air with appreciation..

why are human being so complex? and human are so intelligent.. they can process information and draw conclusion from these.. u might have a good feeling towards someone but the moment he talk to you, u can infer that he is a foe more than a friend..

oh ya, i m so shocked that i am so emotionless the previous week.. i was so angry and lost some EQ on thurs and fri.. i wonder why i did that.. hey i used to do sales right? where is my EQ? haiz.. i was so agitated with people.. sianz.. i mean suan le, i dont give a damn liaoz..

i must not grow fat.. only the pretty in the society would be appreciated.. the ugly would be treated with disdain.. so i must marry the handsome as well.. so that my baby would have a look that would place him/her at a high social status.. who cares about inner beauty ne?

i always like beauty and the beast.. cos i was so ugly in the past.. it gave me false hope that a pretty girl would want to befriend and love you if u have inner beauty despite your hideous look which our current society denounce.. now i still like this beauty and the beast because it gives "false" hope to humanity.. in the harsh and cold society, we need this tiny glim of false hope to live on.. life is beautiful.. ur husband wanted to marry the ugly u is cos of ur inner beauty, NOT cos he was rejected by countless pretty young lady which made him despo and choose the UGLY u cos he finally decided that a UGLY lady can fulfil the role of a free maid, free babysitter, free reproduction machine and a free prostitute as well.. he decided on you UGLY cos the countless rejection by countless pretty lady make him realised that his background is not good enough to have a pretty young lady as a wife.. hmmm.. this show gives me the false hope that guys married ugly gal cos inner beauty makes an ugly pretty rather than the above reason..

oh yeah.. inner beauty ROCKS big time!! what is outer beauty without inner beauty? it would be a body without a soul.. BUT then sad to say, the male likes souless body.. as long as the UGLY is competent to function the role of a complimentary maid, babysitter, reproduction machine and a prostitute.. yup..