it has been another blue day for me.. it has come to a point where i really lose interest in thing in life.. i am so lost.. i don't know what i want in life.. i want to have a break.. i want to run away.. my sis cannot stop quarrelling with me.. i just want some peace which i cannot get..

my gf got some r/s problem.. but to me, i hardly priortise r/s in my life.. yes, i yearn for a soulmate.. yes, i want a happily ever after with my charming prince.. but no, i know all these are just a hoax.. after 24 years of living life, i learnt that there is never such a thing as happily ever after.. so my advice to my fren is always, attached la.. why not? cannot then just break ma..

i want to play.. i want to do alot of thing.. but i am somewhat bounded by morals and ethics.. how good my life is if there is no morals and ethics.. there are occasions of temptation.. an opportunity to do something i yearn to do.. but then i cannot do them.. darn.. it seems like baddies always have the last laugh.. they live the longest of time.. then why strive to be a good person? good person is never appreciated u know? i want to be a bad person BUT i failed all the time because i cannot bring myself to be a bitch..

sometimes u don't know whether u want something BUT on the verge of losing, u suddenly realise u cannot live without it..

i am so bored to the extent of dying.. it is not because i don't have work to do.. but is the mental fatigue.. the pain of trying to amuse my sad soul yet abiding rules and regulations imposed by the society.. when can i break free from all expectations?

and can someone please come rescue me?