blue day 12

i guess today was not that blue already.. yesterday was the ultimate blue day.. to the extent of playing with fire.. now i am thinking of way to salvage the situation.. i pray that it will just die down with time..

anyway, yesterday i went tuition.. since 4 months i saw my kid.. was supposed to be at her house at 3pm.. i reached queenstown mrt at 2.45pm.. her house is just in the vicinity of the mrt station.. but it was raining cats and dogs.. there was no way for me to walk in the rain to her house because i will be badly drenched if i stepped out into the rain.. then the mum called.. she understood my situation and then she put down the phone reciever but i heard every word clearly..

mum: girl, u want to bring the umbrella to ur teacher or just let her wait there until the rain stop?

kid: let her wait..

so i waited for a good whole 25 mins for the rain to subside.. thank god the rain subsided quite substantially..

anyway today afternoon i gained back my consciousness.. so much so i realised that i shouldn't have done wat i have done yesterday.. and with my clearer mind, i could understand certain thing that i could previously not understand.. however i haven't found any solution.. but at least i understood..

was watching 变奏曲 on channel 8 today.. i always love this drama because it showed that everything in life is fated.. if your life is fated to have an ending of tragedy, your life will end in tragedy despite having the opportunity to go back time and re-choose your path..

anyway, the show today showed the book on Endless love of Taj Mahal.. Taj Mahal was built by an Indian king for her beloved demised queen(history of Taj Mahal).. it was a promise to her that he would build the Taj Mahal for her.. it took many years and manpower for the building to be completed.. so the male lead depicted by Elvin wondered if it is possible that people do keep their promise and definitely deliver it even if the promise will take very long time to deliver..

this scene touched my heart quite alot although i don't believe that most people will keep their promise to love someone for the rest of his life..

however i have known of a him who kept his promise to love her with all of his life.. but she didn't keep her promise to love him with all her life probably because she couldn't due to the expectional circumstance she was in.. in the end, he was heartbroken.. it really pained my heart when i saw him cry on several occasions.. the picture of him crying was constantly on my mind even up till now.. it was a reminder to myself of this harsh world.. never be fooled by people who promise you because most of the time, people over-promise but under deliver.. and there is no such thing as happily ever after..