A world with me and myself.

Thursday, 12 July 2007

last tuesday i was nearly disfigured!! it is darn horrible just to think about it..

i was in lab doing column.. then the glass of the column suddenly broke and glass pieces flied towards me.. and i guessed i was too exhuasted because i was suffering from insomnia those few days.. my reflex action to scam from the glass pieces was not working.. luckily there were only a few glass pieces and they were large pieces and i was wearing lab coat and long jeans.. and most importantly, my face.. thank god that i was wearing mask and safety googles.. which means that the glass pieces did no harm to my face.. thank goodness..

i can never imagine how it was like if those glass pieces left a permanent scar across my face.. i would be disfigured.. i can never imagine if i have the courage to carry on living as a witch..

human beings are visual creature.. if u want someone to notice u or get something.. u got to make the first impression.. a disfigured face will definitely give u bad first impression!!! because no one willl ever believe that an ugly person can perform and an ugly person is a good person.. trust me.. we are living in this stupid and crazy world where looks are simply so important.. i understand that i m not a pretty lady but a scar across my face will make me one of the ugliest soul on earth.. who will want to give me a chance to work in the future? i can never work in the service sector.. nor can i work in the business sector.. there is simply nowhere i can go.. my ugly face can only do those behind-the-scene work..

i simply hate it when someone tells me.. my god.. looks is not everything.. character, self-confidence and dunno wat stupid crapz matter most.. would u want someone who is good-looking but sucks in character? people who say this is either childish or plain deceptive.. trying to disguise their true feeling.. because it is not good to acknowledge that they themselve too judge people by their looks..

anyway.. wake up folks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! have u all watched cinderella?? snow white and the 7 dwarfs? sleeping beauty?? all the pretty humans are either prince or princess or some weak fragile folks under the tyranny of a great baddie.. and interestingly, all the baddies in the fairy tales(witches or some villians) are depicted as ugly people..

ok.. human.. u r pardoned for being a visual creature.. because u r influenced by the mass media(mainly by fairytales when u are so young and just start to comprehend the world), by ur parents, by everyone around u that the good will be pretty and ugly shall be the bad..

indeed this accident in the lab caused me to ponder so many thing about my life.. if i were to ever have children in the future.. i will groom them well.. so that they will not be witches or villians.. but princes and princesses..

¤Take it easy... C'est la vie..¤