A world with me and myself.

Saturday, 23 June 2007

sometimes u dont understand why people say certain seemingly unneccessary thing to you.. was the intention of those words to fill in the literary gap or people really mean wat they say??

these few days were busy days.. basically i didnt move that much.. in another words, no output but great input.. so i was so scared that my weigh would suddenly shot up.. and i weighed myself.. the large number that was displayed on the weighing scale scared me half to death..

nevertheless, that never stopped me from buying food.. hahhaa.. so i went down to the coffee shop near my house.. and the worker there was saying that i lost weigh.. i was so astonished when i heard that.. is there really a need to say such meaningless thing? those words didnt make me any happy.. instead i felt irritated.. is there a need to force urself to come up with certain weird conversation (or rather small talk) to just a stranger when there is no need to??

this concerns me alot.. because most of the time i realised that people talk to one another because they want to be deemed as a good and sociable people who are capable of making small talks.. and they thought they have the capability to eradicate any awkard silence.. i understand this is what society expects from human beings.. but if u dont sound sincere about the words that falls from ur mouth.. i would galdly prefer the "awkard" silence.. or why not let me initiate the small talk??

most of the time i dont like to talk about my private life even when people ask me.. this is not because i have some weird past or wat.. this is because i realised that pple never really want to know when they are asking about my life.. this is merely part of their agenda to make my life as the topic of the small talk so that there will be words to remove any awkward silence.. i never forget the incident where my fren ask me about certain thing of my life.. initially i didnt want to tell her.. but after her seemingly endless pleadings, i gave in and told her wat she wanted to know.. to my horror, she seemed sort of drifted away and i decided to test her wat i have just said.. i did it in a tactful manner of course.. and she could not answer any of my questions.. i simply abhor this kind of pple..

we are going to enter the corporate world soon.. and we might need to restort to small talks (which in my opinion is strictly insincere and it merely function to eradicate silence) in the corporate world.. however we are still students now.. why not grab the last opportunity when we can be sincere to each other by not making small talk but real and meaningly talk?

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